This morning, I woke up to Ephraim whimpering and when I picked him up his head was so hot. This is his first fever. It's always kinda heart-breaking to see little ones sick and hurting because they don't know what is going on, just that they feel miserable and don't know what to do and then me, as a parent doesn't know what is going on either because they can't tell you where they hurt or what they feel, so sad. I have enjoyed how cuddly he's been though. He just wants to be held everywhere I go because he feel so bad. He's just a big sweetheart. Tomorrow, if he still has a fever, I'll take him to the doctor and see if its an ear infection. I've noticed that Benny is a lot more prone to fevers than Ephraim. I think Benny had already been through a couple of fevers before he turned 1. Maybe Ephraim has a stronger immune system. Anyways, today I stayed home from church with Ephraim and we were both taking a nap when daddy and Benny got home. It was so cute because Benny burst through the door and was so excited to tell me how his day went. He was smiling and talking real fast, something about a "scary angel". Apparently some kids at church were telling him about a scary movie they had seen with a scary angel in it. It's just amazing that he can tell me about his day now. I asked him if he had played with his friend Zander in nursery and he said "I not play with Zander. Zander was busy." So then I asked him if he played with Peter and he said "Peter not busy." So I guess that meant that Peter's schedule wasn't as packed as Zanders and they had time to play. Benny has also taken a habit to calling everyone "honey" when he needs a favor done. I guess he hears me and Nathan call each other honey when we ask for favors so he does the same. He'll say "blow more bubbles honey" to his grandma Robles and "open the door honey" to his Oma and "Dinners ready honey" to his cousins when he's playing with them in the doll house. It's cute.

Well, so much has happened and so much is going to be changing soon. First of all, Nathan graduated on June 17th! He walked and wore his robe and hat and everything. I got to even walk with him which made it extra fun. I know I graduated last year but because I was 9 months pregnant with Ephraim, I didn't walk so this year I made up for it which we both liked a whole lot better. Now he is working his buns off with three summer jobs!! For a couple of days he worked 14 hour days but its toned down a lot and now he works more like 9 or 11 hour days. He works all day for the remodeling company and then depending on if he's scheduled or not he'll work in the evening for Yoplicity which is the frozen yogurt joint and then on the weekends he'll work for the funeral home cleaning. He really likes working for Yoplicity but I think he made himself sick with all the free frozen yogurt he gets there. He missed boating and hanging out on the river with my family during the forth of July weekend as a result. Nathan and I sometimes laugh at how things have changed so much. When we were first married and living in Rexburg, job hunting was like a death sentence for Nathan and there wasn't as much motivation as there is now to go out looking for work. It's just interesting how a person can go from not wanting to work to having three jobs and wishing he could get more hours. I've thought about what has happened to cause this change and I believe that the biggest factor was goal making. I realized that while we were in Rexburg we didn't have any goals. We didn't know what we were doing or what Nathan was going to do especially. There were no plans for our future. Since Nathan has started going to school, it's kinda forced us to think about those kind of things. Now that Nathan has a goal of what he wants to do, we've been making a lot of plans together and its been really fun and exciting. I know a lot of older people say they are glad they have passed the stage in their lives where they had to find out what they were going to do with their lives, kinda the same way married people say they are glad they don't have to date anymore, but in a way it's also the most exciting time too. Its fun to dream about the future and what you can make happen. I'm sure it will be fun too when we're passed that and are in a more stable and permanent situation but till then we're having fun. Right now, we're trying to get on the fast grad program at BYU-I, which means he'll go to school all year round so he can graduate faster. Our goal is to be done in two years or less, hopefully less. We're still trying to figure out how we'll accomplish that financially but I think it will all turn out.
Ephraim also turned the big 1!! He's actually a whole year old and he's just gotten cuter during that year. He's managed not to grow much hair also which figures because I've always wanted a little red head and now that I have one, his hair is taking its sweet time coming out. Maybe by two he will have a noticeable amount of hair on his head, but I can wait another year because he makes bald look adorable. I can't believe I have a two year old and a one year old. It somehow doesn't seem right. I still feel just as immature as I did in high school but I have these two little guys I'm responsible for. How did this happen? What makes it weird is that they're part of me. They got my genes and stuff like that. I just hope that when they get older, they'll see me as a mature and responsible parent instead of the way I feel. Anyways, whether I'm ready or not, I love them a lot.